My First Spirit Attachment

I wish to share this account of my first spirit attachment as a way to normalize that this really can happen to anyone and one should not feel shame for what we experience. My deeply personal and disturbing first encounter with a spirit attachment happened after a deep meditation. At the time, I had never heard of spirit attachments. I had no idea what was happening to me.

After meditation one morning, I felt a strong, intense presence standing to my left. I could feel this was a disembodied spirit so I stayed in meditation and prayed for this spirit and not long after felt the presence disappear and I thought it had moved on. I had no idea that it had attached and that the next few months would make me question everything I thought I knew of the world around me.

The disturbances to my mental health began immediately. I will not give the details of these thoughts because even now they disturb me to my core. The random, violent thoughts came out of nowhere and I just thought it was intrusive thoughts caused by the stress of trying to relocate to a new state and trying to find a new home and acclimate my child to a new life and new school. Stress can definitely affect your life.

But these thoughts were intense, unhinged, deeply disturbing and completely out of character for me. Sometimes they were so intense I would lock myself in the bathroom and pray and meditate until they went away.

Once we moved into our new home, I started to realize this was something else beyond intrusive thoughts. At the time, I started having visions of a man dressed in 1800's style clothing and a top hat with a cockney British accent. He would pop into my mind right as I fell asleep or right after meditation. Sometimes he would yell at me while I was walking down the hall or scream at me when I was sleeping and wake me up. I would have violent, disturbing nightmares.

I cleared my new home with Reiki and sage rituals but nothing got rid of him. As I was preparing to take my Reiki Master course with a local Reiki Master, I came across the information about spirit attachments. I called the Reiki Master Teacher and scheduled a Reiki session with her letting her know I was pretty sure I had a malefic spirit attachment for nearly six months.

The day of my appointment, I got in the car and started driving. I was singing to the music and feeling optimistic that this nightmare would soon be over.  As I was about to drive over a very high and pretty long highway bridge over a huge river, I guess the spirit decided he wasn't having it. The thoughts that began were intense and almost uncontrollable as I was told to drive off the bridge and the urges that followed were so strong. I could feel myself fighting the steering wheel as this spirit attempted to do just that. I was crying and screaming at the top of my lungs, "I am a sovereign being of love and light! I am a sovereign being of love and light!" I fought the steering wheel the full length of that bridge and was shaking uncontrollably once I made it to the other side. 

I don't know how I got to the actual appointment but once there I told the Reiki Master what had happened. She listened and said yes, these types of spirits do not want to be released and will do whatever it takes to stop you. She completely normalized the experience for me and felt so relieved that she was not judging me and knew exactly what to do. This was not her first rodeo. She released that spirit from me that day and almost immediately I felt lighter, clearer and better. It took nearly a week for all the lingering energy to detox and leave forever. The thoughts, urges and the spirit himself were completely gone and have never returned.

I wish I had known about spirit attachments when it first happened and how they could be released quickly by a Reiki Master so I wouldn't have had to endure those difficult months. The silver lining is the experience I gained and the compassion I have for anyone going through a similar situation. I know how strong my spirit is now after that. In many ways, I learned more from this direct experience than I would have ever learned from anywhere else and I am grateful for the knowledge that I now use to help others.